Friday 2nd

Taken a day away from work, suki pulled the kids from school and we all travelled up to the Midlands in the vain hope of trying to be supportive and helpful - but where do you start.  Brother and sister-in-law look broken and tired and there are no words that I can find to offer any kind of comfort, all I can do is ask questions and listen.  Held the baby in hospital today, complications aside, he is big, healthy and wrigglely.  Suki and I quietly weep in private as we discuss what has happened and our own feeling of guilt when we look at our own children - how do we get off so lucky? 

Slept at my brothers place, after cleaning up and putting things back in place.